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I've taken to studying at the balcony for the sake of a novel revision experience... But it seems that my drive is running at a low and somehow I just find myself unable to fully concentrate when studying.
The weather is great, sunny but with the occasional breeze - I even have a shade to protect me from the glaring rays - so what's stopping me from slipping into the mood? I prepare snacks and cold drinks to be readily available when I need them, just so I don't have the excuse of feeling peckish when studying, but boy, I can come up with the most ridiculous excuses when I am not in the mood to revise.
I'll just take a power nap - then I'll continue!
That's what I keep telling myself, but once I jump on my bed it's Youtube and internet time all the way and in the blink of an eye, 2-3 hours would have passed me by. Wait, what happened to the 20 minutes rest?
And then there's the dilemma of studying at home or outside. I haven't fully recovered from Pneumonia - and I even think I might be having strep throat (strawberry tongue!!!) - so going out isn't really an option for me, but let's presume I'm healthy with no germs to spread... then what? I'd probably want to study the entire day at McDonald's but I'm not too sure whether I want to do this alone. I mean, it gets boring, right? I'm only okay with studying alone at a familiar place, like school, but when it comes to public places....
I've been contemplating a few places to just sit down and do work without getting distracted/lazy, and so far the options are McDonald's, NLB Study Lounge and an anti-cafe. This is the point in time when I feel grateful for Chinese classes, because I get forced to read the newspaper, and it was through the papers that I got to know of this new cafe concept: the Anti-Cafe. It basically works like this: you pay for as long as you are in the cafe (per hour?) and you can help yourself to the snacks and board games that are there. For those who know board-game cafes, it's a board-game cafe concept with free snacks. Of course, me being a hungry devil, these snacks will never be enough to constitute a meal for me if I want to spend the entire day there. Plus, it's around $30 for full day entry so... is it really worth it to spend $30 when I can simply study at home where better food is awaiting me? It's really just a problem of my discipline.. :(
Tomorrow I will be going to my parents' office to do Math, and hopefully this will be the best place to do work. I get food, air-con, and the pressure to study. You can tell I'm desperate when I put myself in front of my parents on purpose to feel pressured to study. But really, my parents don't pressure me much, so it kind of defeats the purpose.
There was once when I took out my laptop and loaded kongregate.com slyly. Then I asked my mom, "Will you scold me if I play games for a while?" She then replied, "I will scold you if you don't play for a while."
BEST. MOM. EVER.
My dad does pretty much the same, but these days I find myself communicating less with my parents and even less with my dad...
I feel bad for that, but hey I feel worse for my studies now.
I'm supposed to get a 45.
But I'm not putting in the effort for it.
What is wrong with me?????
I just realised that I'm wasting time blogging when I can be using this time to do practice.
I'm such a loser.
xoxo
Valerie
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